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HUEÄ ÑAÕ TAÉT NUÏ CÖÔØI
Khi xöa Hueá laø moät coâ gaùi hoàn nhieân, ñaày söùc
soáng. Meï coâ cho bieát nhö theá. vaø meï coâ noùi raèng coâ nhu moät ñoaù
hoa, baát chaáp möa naéng, luoân luoân nôû roä. Nhöng Hueá ñaõ taét nuï
cöôøi töø hôn 8 naêm nay. Coâ laãn troán moïi ngöôøi, soáng thu vaøo
chính mình, quanh quaån ôû maûnh vöôøn nhoû sau nhaø, taâm thoaïi vôùi
vaøi con caù vaøng, níu keùo laïi nhöõng hoàn nhieân xöa ñeå queân ñi
nhöõng daèn vaët cuûa hieän taïi. Khoå ñau baét ñaàu töø moät chuyeán haønh trình 17 naêm tröôùc ñaây. Moät ngaøy cuûa thaùng 05, con thuyeàn nhoû daøi 20 feet vaø 32 ngöôøi tînaïn khaùc bò haûi taëc Thaùi Lan taán coâng trong vònh Thaùi Lan. Nhöõng gì xaõy ra sau ñoù vöôït qua taát caû nhöõng gì man rôï vaø taøn baïo nhaát maø ngöôøi ta coù theå hình dung ra ñöôïc. Maëc duø ñaõ ñoå daàu maùy vaø nöôùc maém leân ngöôøi ñeå xua ñuoåi luõ haûi taëc, Hueá vaø caùc phuï nöõ treân thuyeàn vaãn bò chuùng haõm hieáp. Hoài töôûng laïi söï vieäc xaõy ra luùc ñoù. Hueá cho bieát trong luùc coâ bò baïo haønh, haõm hieáp, khoaûng 10 teân haûi taëc khaùc nhaûy muùa, reo hoø chung quanh. Chuùng thay phieân ñaùnh ñaäp vaø haõm hieáp coâ. Nhöõng veát caén, ñaùnh ñaäp chuùng ñeå laïi treân ngöôøi coâ taøn baïo ñeán ñoä coâ phaûi traûi qua moät cuoäc giaûi phaåu ñeå chænh laïi ngöïc. Treân thuyeàn cuûa Hueá coù moät em gaùi 16 tuoåi. Em cuõng bò chuùng hieáp. Sôï haõi vaø khoâng chòu noåi söï cuoàng baïo, em baét ñaàu ra maùu. Vaø cöù theá em maát maùu daàn cho ñeán khi cheát. Söï man rôï khoâng döøng ôû ñoù. Sau khi em cheát, luõ haûi taëc che nöõa phaàn thaân theå phía treân cuûa em vaø tieáp tuïc haõm hieáp xaùc cheát cuûa em. Boá em, khoâng chòu noåi söï kinh hoaøng ñoù ñaõ trôû neân ñieân loaïn. Caùc ngöôøi ñaøn oâng treân thuyeàn ñaõ baát löïc nhìn vôï vaø con gaùi mình bò haõm hieáp. Moät soá coá gaéng can thieäp, ñaõ bò haûi taëc gieát cheát, xaùc bò chuùng quaêng xuoáng bieån. Cuøng thuyeàn vôùi Hueá, hai em beù trai ñaõ chöùng kieán, trong noåi lo sôï vaø kinh hoaøng, caûnh meï caùc em bò haõm hieáp nhieàu laàn. Sau khi caøn queùt con thuyeàn nhoû beù, cöôùp boùc vaø haõm hieáp xaùc thieáu nöõ, luõ haûi taëc boû ñi vaø mang theo 4 thieáu nöõ trong ñoù coù caû Hueá. Lôïi duïng luùc chuùng thaùo daây thuyeàn, Hueá laãn troán vaø thoaùt. Hueá cho bieát coâ coá gaéng quyeân ñi nhöõng daèn vaët, noåi kinh hoaøng cuûa chuyeán ñi ñoù, nhöng nhöõng hình aûnh ñau thöông lieân luïc hieän ra maõi trong oùc cuûa coâ thoâi. Hueá caûm thaáy traøn ñaày toäi loåi vì ñaõ khoâng cöùu thoaùt ñöôïc ba ngöôøi baïn gaùi cuûa mình. Moåi laàn gia ñình hoï töø Vieät Nam vieát thö thaêm hoûi, Hueá ñaõ phaûi noùi doái laø hoï ñang ôû ñaâu ñoù taïi Myõ, vaø coâ ñaõ maát lieân laïc vôùi hoï, nhöng coâ khoâng daùm noùi laø ñaõ maát maõi maõi. Moät chieán taøu may maén ñeán ñöôïc beán bôø töï do an toaøn Naêm nay Hueá ñaõ 38 tuoåi, coâ laäp gia ñình vôùi moät ngöôøi ñaøn oâng lôùn hôn coâ 5 tuoåi, nhöng ñôøi soáng haïnh phuùc gia ñình khoâng bao giôø ñöôïc troïn veïn. Coâ khoâng bao giôø coù ñöôïc ñôøi soáng sinh lyù bình thöôøng. Boán naêm tröôùc coâ ñaõ duøng thuoác nguû ñeå töï töû, nhöng ñöôïc cöùu thoaùt. Hueá cho bieát coâ khoâng coøn laø chính mình nöõa. Coâ khoâng coøn tha thieát gì ôû cuoäc soáng, ngoaïi tröø noå löïc giuùp ñôõ nhöõng phuï nöõ khaùc coù cuøng caûnh ngoä nhö coâ, vaø coù leõ coøn bi thöông hôn coâ nöõa. Ñoù laø tröôøng hôïp cuûa moät em gaùi môùi 15 tuoåi, ñi cuøng thuyeàn vôùi Hueá. Em ñaõ chöùng kieán caûnh hai ngöôøi anh cuûa mình bò gieát cheát vì muoán baûo veä em. Em bò haûi taëc hieáp vaø coù thai. |
As a
girl in Vietnam, Hue was so cheerful that her mother would look at the smile and say,
" Rain or shine, the flower blooms." Now she is 35 and finds it difficult to smile. She avoids human company, preferring to spend her time alone in the backyard of their small Sunnyvale house. The exotic birds, the goldfish ponds, the Asian statuary - all are shrines to sweet memories, handholds on the past that keep her from sinking into the sorrow of the present. But the garden is a refuge only during the day. At night, she has no place to hide from the dreams that invade her sleep and leave her screaming. The screams echo back to
an evening in May eight years ago, when Thai pirates raped her with a savagery uncommon
even on the Gulf of Thailand. That night turned Hue's life from a joy into a burden. Hue shudders with disgust as she recalls the first man who raped her
as 10 others clapped and cheered in a circle around them. His head was shaved, and the
knife he held to her throat slashed her chin when she turned her head and clawed at his
face. In retaliation, he and several other pirates clawed and bit her body with such force
that she recently underwent surgery tor reconstruct her mutilated breasts. The pirates
then turned on a petite 16-year-old virgin and began to rape her as her father looked on.
Unable to accommodate their brutality, the girl began to hemorrhage. As she slowly bled to
death, they continued to ape her. After she died, they covered the upper half of their
body with a sheet and raped her some more. Temporarily sated, the pirates decided to keep four women, including
Hue, and let the other refugees continue their voyage. Only by leaping onto the refugee
boat as a pirate cut the rope that bound it to the fishing boat did hue manage to save
herself. But what she saved, she said was only part of what she had been. |